No, me and my husband are not separating! We are doing just fine and dandy. What I am talking about is separating yourself from others. I am very good at this, just ask my friends. When I am not doing very well mentally or spiritually or even physically, I tend to separate myself from my church friends and from church entirely. I don’t really understand why I pull into my shell when I so need the help and encouragement, but I suspect it has something to do with pride.
Now, I would have told you six months ago that I didn’t have a problem with pride, but I believe that almost every sin that you commit can be traced back to a problem with pride. Here are just a few things that the Bible says about pride.
When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.
Proverbs 11:2 NIV
Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.
Proverbs 16:18 NIV
That is just a couple of the verses that have to do with pride. I think that God knew that this would be a big struggle for us.
Now, back to my separating. When I am not feeling well mentally (depressed, down, etc.) or physically (just not feeling well), then I tend to quit calling my friends, doing my Bible study, going to church, going to friend’s houses, etc. What I should do instead is call my friends (especially church friends) and allow them to encourage me. I am an encourager myself, but I just don’t allow my friends to do this for me. Case in point, a month or so ago, I was really down. I went to a friend’s house for Bible study and broke down. I was not myself and my friend knew this. She begged me to go out to lunch with her-she was even going to pay, but I keep telling her no. I wouldn’t allow her to spend time with me and encourage me. She was doing exactly what she was supposed to do, but I didn’t allow her to do it (Sorry, Karen!). It was pride. I don’t want people to see me falling apart. I don’t want them to see me down. I don’t want to be a downer for them. Why? Because of pride. I have a problem with this. In fact, my husband pointed out the fact that I had began my separating act this week. I didn’t go to small group last Wednesday (excuse that Abbie was potty-training, but I still could have gone) and I didn’t go to church Sunday (excuse that my back was hurting and it was, but I could still have gone)and I didn’t go to our friend’s house Friday night (excuse that KellyAnn was not feeling well and she wasn’t, but I normally wouldn’t have let that stop me). My husband was right (I hope he doesn’t read this! TEE HEE!!). I was starting it, but I quickly put an end to it when he pointed it out. I picked myself up, dusted off my pants, and went to Bible Study Monday morning, where I was greatly blessed by our Beth Moore Bible study.
I said all that to say this. Pride is a big issue for me and probably is for many of you out there. Think about any sin that you have a problem with. If you really sift it out, is pride at the forefront of it? I am almost positive that you will find that it is.
Lord, please show me when I am being prideful. Send my friends and family to point it out when I am separating. I cannot be the woman that you want me to be without spending time with my church family. Let them be a blessing to me, just as I try to be a blessing to them. Thank you, Lord.
Smiles and Loves! Janis