What dreams have you had lately? My dreams have been full of change. I can see why. This has been a few years of change with starting a business, selling our home, moving to a new home, changing churches, moving one of my chicks into college, and letting go of things we are no longer interested in. I am not someone that embraces change regularly, so having dreams about more changes is understandable. I feel unsteady with the changes already made, so why not throw more in?
One thing I have long dreamed of is writing a book. I love to read and I love to write, so feel as if this is an area I want to delve into for the future. My passion for women is immense. I want them to find themselves in God. While I am still on a journey of my own, my passion lies in helping women of all ages find that passion for living God means for us to have. God wants us to feel complete and we cannot possibly feel complete without God. No man, kids, or job can fill those empty holes in our life to give us the satisfaction in a live well lived focused on Jesus Christ.
One thing that I must tell you about myself, however, is that I am a bit anti-social. How can I share passion with others without going against who I am? People who don’t know me outside of work may be thinking, “She talks to people all the time. How can she be anti-social?” What you don’t know is that talking to people strikes a deep fear inside of me. I go home and think about what I said and whether it is going to offend anyone. I want to be liked and I feel as if that is jeopardized by being social. I guess I don’t think much of myself or of God in that area. But….my heart knows that God loves me with an immeasurable love and that I am pretty awesome. My head just gets in the way with those feelings of insecurity.
So where do I go from here? I am on a journey to finding that peace and security in myself and my abilities that only God can give me. You see, when I look in the mirror I see an overweight, almost 50-year old woman who is just wanting to fit in, but God sees a beautiful, radiant child of His that wants to change the world. Finding that woman who God sees is my goal for this period of my life.
What are you working on? Comment and let’s work on it together!